Monday, December 23, 2013
Started working at my winter job today (second year at it in a row). I work the tube park part of my local ski resort. It's supposed to be the best snow tubing in Ontario. I have a lot of fun working there. Everyone (the customers) was happy: two days before Christmas!
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Monday, December 2, 2013
It's 2:00 in the morning
I'm trying to decide if that cup of caffeinated coffee was worth it...
It was good coffee
But I do love sleep...
My friend even warned me,
Knowing how caffeine affects me,
That it was caffeinated coffee.
Come to think of it,
This is probably the combination of the cup of coffee at 6 p.m.
And the cup of coffee at 9:15 p.m.
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
You are so encouraging. I don't know how you stand me, when I find myself so annoying sometimes. I don't know how you're so patient with me when I come complaining to you so often. I am so needy, and you just take it all in stride. I'm beginning to see, more and more, that while you're not perfect, you're perfect for me.
Friday, November 22, 2013
This morning I was suddenly wide awake. I had remembered in my sleep that I had forgotten to do something that had to be checked by 7:00 this morning. But I looked at my clock and it said 7:40... I had missed the deadline. It wasn't a super important thing, just check some songs for Sunday and figure out if I needed to change any of them, but I still had wanted to make sure... I laid back down, disappointed that I had missed the deadline, disappointed I had forgotten to do it last night. But comforting myself that I am a good pianist. Suddenly, as I was laying there trying to fall back to sleep, I remembered that my clock was still an hour ahead! It was only 6:40! I lay there for a few moments longer, deciding if it was worth leaving my cozy nest. I believe, however, that God woke me up. Thankfully I did not need to change any of the songs, but if I had I would have been super stressed for missing the time given me for changing it. And I am very grateful God woke me up.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
You tell me you're 85% sure
I try so hard to be patient
I don't want you to feel pressured
School is most important right now
I keep saying
But I'm glad you disagree
I want to see you
But I will never tell you 'you have to come home'
If only your university was closer
I just wish we knew if you were able to come home
This weekend will drag
If you're not here
But I will do my best to be patient
To wait to find out
To not pressure you
Thursday, November 14, 2013
It's amazing how different one piano lesson can be to the next.
Last week felt like twice as long as it was.
Yesterday's lesson felt like half as long as it was, and by the time the hour and a half were up we'd only studied one song.
Hopefully it means good things for practicing this week.
Monday, November 11, 2013
My family (minus my sister, who had to work) went down to the cenotaph today to remember and honour our nation's veterans, and those who risk their lives for us every day. Afterwards we pinned our poppies to a wrath dedicated to Canada's war veterans.
Lest we forget.
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
My piano lesson today felt like it was hours, instead of only an hour and a half. I'm not sure why, completely, but I think it was because we covered so much material in that time slot. I think it was also partly because I've been feeling rather down lately, and being reminded of all the ways I'm playing wrong, and all the things I should know and don't, from being taught by a different teacher, is a little overwhelming. It is so hard to remember everything that is normally taught more slowly to beginner pianists. But I know I can do this. I will. And I'll be a better teacher and pianist because of it.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
The BBC TV series Downton Abbey is positively addicting. I watched five episodes today... So anxious for the next episode to come out, but that won't be until Sunday, I think... argh! There are, I must admit, some storylines that are just getting old. Edith, the Dowager verses Mrs. Crowley. But hopefully they will be improved, if not by the end of this season, during next season.
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Strolls down the beach
Hot chocolate and bacon at the pier
Drive to the farther pier
Search for shark teeth
Watch fast fish
Go shopping in the most uninteresting way possible
Supper out (Italian buffet)
Swimming in the ocean
Longest shower ever (felt soo good)
Sand castle building
Watch the ocean try to wreck our sandcastle (took too long, so we went back upstairs)
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Slow strolls on the beach
Shark teeth hunting
Cool camera shots
New nail polish
Ice cream cake
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Thursday, October 10, 2013
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Brought my old stuffed bear out of storage today. I sat him at the piano and proceeded to give him his first piano lesson. Yes, I do feel some embarrassment when I admit that, but I figure it's a little more natural than practicing giving piano lessons to air... Suddenly, about ten minutes into the lesson, I realized with great embarrassment that someone, that my sister, was doing something in the next room. And I had neglected to close the door to the rec room. She came in and began exclaiming, as typical sisters do, how what I was doing was "The most adorable thing ever". She took my cellphone and proceeded to take a picture of Snoozums at the piano. Oh boy.
A little while later my mother came down to the rec room. "Awww, it's Snoozums! I miss Snoozums! He's so cute! Awww!"
Maybe this wasn't such a great idea.
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Monday, September 30, 2013
Thursday, September 26, 2013
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Yesterday I got a piano lesson on how to teach piano. Among other things. Today, as I taught and as I practiced piano, I was applying all that I've been learning from just two piano lessons. So glad I have a new teacher, I'm learning so much. I'm so inspired to learn.
Each person has only so much knowledge they can give you, after all, and after 9 years, you've pretty much learned all you can. Right now my new teacher seems an endless well of information, but every well has a bottom. I will enjoy her while I can, and learn a much as I can from her. So far, as much as I can is a lot. :)
Saturday, September 14, 2013
Thursday, September 12, 2013
It's amazing how you can feel so upset about something, so unsure. You feel like your life is about to fall apart.
And then you talk to an old friend, text them a question, and they answer and say, would you like to talk on the phone?
So you call them, and for the next hour they reasure you, and speak words of both wisdom and comfort. They pray for you, on the phone, right then and there.
Your whole attitude changes. You are no longer crying at the thought of what you need to do. You feel suddenly brave, you remember God is on your side, holding your hand. It's not like you forgot, just now you really feel it, you're really trusting. And you suddenly realize you can do what you need to, you know what needs to be done, you know what needs to be said. And whatever the outcome, it is for the very best. Holding on hurts more in the long run. You can do this.
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
Thursday, August 22, 2013
As I was laying in bed
I heard thunder.
It can't be
It must be something else.
I heard it again.
Call and say I don't need to work this morning
Then I can do some stuff that I need to get done before camp.
The phone rings.
No picking will be done this morning.
Maybe not this afternoon either.
Otherwise: come in tomorrow.
I need the money,
But time is lacking, and I have commitments.
An unspoken, unthought prayer: answered.
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
When your boss buys you danishes
So sweet, thoughtful of him
That hour of regret when the danish sits your stomach like a rock
Because you are working hard in the heat
And your body would rather put energy into you cooling off, or even walking, than digesting all those carbs
Remind me to say no next time
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Today at work I had a big, black, hornet-type bug flying around me. By big, I mean it would have been very painful to anger it. So I tread carefully for a few minutes. Then I noticed it had grabbed a grasshopper, which was about twice its size. The hornet was on top of the grasshopper's back, and dragged it on the ground about two feet before stopping. Just as I was beginning to wonder if the grasshopper was dead, the hornet left it, flew a couple circles around it, and flew off. The grasshopper was twitching. I have a feeling the hornet poisoned it, and had flown off to get help to carry it. I hate watching any creature suffer, but I reasoned in my head that if I helped the grasshopper, the hornet would either starve or get another bug. Any which way I looked something got hurt. And this grasshopper probably was paralyzed anyways. I'm not a 'treehugger'. Or anything close. But watching an innocent creature suffer, even a bug, in spite of my extreme dislike and even phobia of bugs, is saddening for me... Am I ridiculous? My friends would probably laugh. It is, after all, only a bug. But if I am honest with myself...
Friday, August 16, 2013
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Saturday, August 3, 2013
Friday, July 5, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
All the interesting aspects of starting a piano studio. Figuring out policies and rules. Building lesson plans. Finding creative ways to teach young children. Figuring out the cost. Two days of work and more to come. So enjoyable and lovely. THIS is what I want to do :)
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Friday, June 21, 2013
I'm not a huge fan of modern chic flicks. I'd rather watch a classic, like Les Misérables, or an action movie, like Batman Begins. The movie Leap Year is a fine exception to this generality. It makes me laugh every time I see it. Many good moments have been spent watching it.
Thursday, June 20, 2013
Don't make it so intense, it's not a competition, it's just a game
Falling on the ground
Conversations and laughter
Fire and snacks and singing
Monday, June 17, 2013
Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Once you have sorted out your thoughts, realized what you have really been feeling deep down in your very soul, discuss them with those people who they concern. If someone is hurting you, let them know in a loving manner, and forgive them. If you have been blaming your own problems on someone else ask their forgiveness. If you love someone tell them. Don't wait to sort out your relationships, to forgive and be forgiven, to love and be loved, until it is too late, or you will regret it the rest of your life.
Monday, June 3, 2013
Friday, May 24, 2013
Wednesday, May 22, 2013
You're not the only one
To sleep through the firing squad
To scream through the night at God
Wake in a pouring sweat you hear the sound
Can't even turn around
Hand reaching from the ground
Who's gonna save us
Who's gonna save us now
Tuesday, May 21, 2013
Long walk with together
Celebrate mothers day with MY mother
Walk with family
Lay in the grass
Sunday: church here, church there
Attempt to sleep in... Sound and light...
Drive to Chingacousy Park
Sitting in the shade
Run through the kiddie splash pad
Rain and rushed goodbyes
An excellent long weekend
I miss you Brandon
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Finally watched a movie on Monday movie night again... The last few weeks have involved talking instead of movies... And tonight was not Monday night, either...
We watched Knight and Day. An action/comedy/romance. Hilarious. A movie that you cannot take seriously or it will be lame. Totally want to watch it again!
Monday, May 13, 2013
I have been noticing that whenever I have an emotional shipwreck I have not been spending as much time with my Lord as I ought. So God reminds me by giving me tests that with Him I should be able to pass.. Tests that I fail, because I have not been paying attention to Him. Tests that, in order to survive, I need to flee back into His loving, protecting arms. And He takes my upside-down disaster heap of emotions and sends someone to comfort me, and sets my emotions back in place.
Resolve: to stop using God like a vending machine.
Crying so hard your head hurts. And you're told over texting that you need a hug (between the lines: 'I wish I was there so I could give you a hug'). And right then someone else gives it to you, not knowing what the text said.
Love my sister and brothers. And my boyfriend is so good to me.
Thursday, May 9, 2013
Tuesday, May 7, 2013
Monday, May 6, 2013
Sunday, May 5, 2013
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Don't let me decide, my Father
What the future ought to bring
I would make mistakes or rather,
I would ruin everything
As a child, Lord wilt Thou lead me?
Wilt Thou guide me by Thy hand?
I would lose the way, please lead me
Lead me to the promised land.
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Girls' Night Out
Andrea, Brianna, me
East Side Mario's
Haven't been there in years, rather more expensive than I remembered
The bread is just as good though
Ordered my first alcoholic beverage out,
Nice bartender, just the right level of friendly, without being a flirt
Only ate half my pizza
No dessert, no way
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
It's the little things in life
Like not getting teased for getting into a parking lot scrape with another vehicle
Like having my Dad leave a customer meeting because I am more important to him
Like having Daddy buy me a KitKat bar, a sweet gesture to cheer me up
Like girls' night out
And iced lemonades
And not crying when I got my ears pierced
Like gummy worms, and accidentally calling them gummy bears... every single time
Like having someone else make lunch
Like talking with Brandon even for just an hour
Just the little things that make life so sweet amidst the bitterness.
Thursday, April 18, 2013
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
The most nerve-wrecking day of preparation for a performance is the day before, when you sit down at the piano, hoping to just play through each song once, perfectly, by memory, and mess up or lose your spot in your head, can't remember how it goes, and have to look at the book to remember :S
Monday, April 15, 2013
Friday, April 12, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
Monday, April 8, 2013
Friday, April 5, 2013
Thursday, April 4, 2013
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
As much as I think you are beautiful, and peaceful, you bring the cold, and I hate cold. When I was done working at the tubing park I said 'now the snow may go'. You didn't, so I went snowboarding. When I was done snowboarding I said 'NOW the snow can go'. At first you didn't. But last weekend's beautiful weather gave us all the impression you were gone til next year. Congratulations, you have deceived us all. You have come back with a vengeance, one final taunt before spring. Now. You may go. Please leave us and do not return til November.
Monday, April 1, 2013
Good Friday service, to remember the death of my Lord and Savior; His sacrifice on the Cross; taking my sins so I don't have to suffer the everlasting agony of hell which I so deserve.
The Lord's Supper.
Seven hours at my sister's boyfriend's house, visiting with his, ours, and my boyfriend's families. Such a lovely time.
Food. So much food. All weekend long. Chocolate. Fruit. Chips. Crackers. Veggies. Pizza. Desserts.
Saturday. Relaxing. Cooking. Haircuts. Walking in the warm sunshine.
Easter services. Fellowship at church.
More food. Quality family time.
Staying up late, games, Gladiator.
Goodbyes. So ends the beautiful four-day weekend.
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
A movie (last night was girls' movie night). About a Polish woman who lived during World War II and smuggled more than 2,500 Jewish children out of the Warsaw ghetto, saving them from death at the hands of the Nazis. A true hero, she was caught and tortured in an attempt to persuade her to reveal where one of her contacts lived. She was sentenced to be shot by a firing squad because she would not give up her information. She lived because one of the Germans on the firing squad was bribed to free her. She hid in the mountains for the rest of the war. Not one of the children she rescued was found by the Nazis. She was nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize in 2008, but lost to Al Gore because he made some slide show on global warming.
Monday, March 25, 2013
Saturday, March 23, 2013
Lots of food
Dessert of ice cream
Ice cream toppings (nostalgia sets in)
Washing dishes, cutlery, cups, crock pots
Six hours after I left: home
All these people, advertising that they are desperate for a relationship. It makes me sad. Not only because they are not happy like I am. That is a small part. Mostly because they are trying for happiness on their own terms. Desperate enough for a relationship they'll do anything. They think that is what will make them happy. They are not trusting and content in God. If they really think a relationship is the thing that will make them happy, they will never be truly happy and content and full of joy. That is what makes me sad.
Friday, March 22, 2013
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Tuesday, March 19, 2013
Monday, March 18, 2013
If I spend an hour on technique and twenty minutes on each song every day, five days a week, that's four hours a day, twenty hours a week. Three weeks til music festival means I'll practice, between now and then, sixty hours. Fourteen weeks til my exam means 280 hours spent practicing piano for my grade 9 exam.
Sunday, March 17, 2013
Friday, March 15, 2013
Thursday, March 14, 2013
I love it when we go out for 'coffee'... and get fruit smoothies inserted so we aren't up all night. We could probably talk for twice as long as we did, without running out of things to say. We two are like peas and carrots. We are so alike. We make each other laugh and giggle so so much. Two blondes, with such similar personalities. I wonder what people around us think. Not that it matters. If we knew we'd probably just laugh some more. We need to do this more often.
I am so blessed.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Tuesday, March 12, 2013
The joy on a little girl's face when I push her tube down the hill. The smiles and laughter when I say 'yes, I can spin you down the hill'. The utter exhaustion of moving mat after mat, and still having more to move. The feeling of peace driving home so late at night, almost the only one on the road. Bed.
Monday, March 11, 2013
Saturday, March 9, 2013
Lovely almost-spring day
Sunlight shooting across open blue skies
Piles of snow slowly shrinking
Natural light streaming in through the windows
Brandon and Jacob playing chess
Silent house except for Jacob's constant chatter
Sleeping dog, chirping bird